My Journey

This is flawless. Makes me want to be this small :( i weighed...

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 09:36:08 -0600

This is flawless. Makes me want to be this small :(

i weighed in at 117.2 today. Fuck a duck.

suicidalprincesswithdisorders: S.K.I.N.N.Y. what every girl...

Sun, 11 Nov 2012 16:36:06 -0600

suicidalprincesswithdisorders:

S.K.I.N.N.Y. what every girl dreams of.

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Fri, 09 Nov 2012 16:28:46 -0600

WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 13:42:59 -0500

On my planet? The catacombs under Venice! There are extensive tunnels that run underneath the city that house some of the most precious and luxurious art and wine. I would love that!

October 25, 2012

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 13:35:14 -0500

It truly is a magnificent thing to lose weight. I feel so much lighter and i cannot wait to feel even more light. I can see how this could be addicting, this weightlessness. Everyday I watch that scale to see if I am closer to perfection. In the last couple days I have shed inches! Oh my goodness, I have been waiting for this! FUCK YES! This is what I have been fighting for, wanting , yearning, waiting to see results!!!!

It has not been easy though. I would not allow myself on tumblr until i was at 115. Today, I reached that milestone :)

High BF: You know, you have been doin some great shit recently.

Wed, 17 Oct 2012 13:08:45 -0500

High BF: You know, you have been doin some great shit recently.
Me: Yeah? Like what?
High BF: Well, for instance, working out.
Me: Working out? Why?
High BF: Things don't jiggle as much when we shag.
Me: Oh.
Me:
Me:
High BF: Just sayin'
Me: (Cries silently)

October 17, 2012

Wed, 17 Oct 2012 13:01:07 -0500

I haven’t been on in quite a while. I have just been getting either hammered or high as balls every night. And this has not been good for my appetite and weight. I mean, some serious munchies have been goin down. Everything from McDonalds to Nutrigrain bars. Today I start my 14 day fast- all the wall to October 24 at 8:00 am. I have started this fast three times now and failed each and every time. As soon as I get past the 72 hours mark, though, I will be good. Thos efirst three days are awful. BUT ITS WORTH IT! I need to be skinny by Halloween!!!! Motivation motivation motivation!

"They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing, and a second time, a bit later on, when..."

Wed, 17 Oct 2012 12:55:34 -0500

“They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing, and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time.”

- Banksy (via sydneysaysrawrr)

wearethewintergirls: Everyday

Tue, 09 Oct 2012 20:52:21 -0500

wearethewintergirls:

Everyday

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Fri, 05 Oct 2012 11:50:32 -0500

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Fri, 05 Oct 2012 11:02:48 -0500

Last night

Fri, 05 Oct 2012 09:16:36 -0500

Last night i weighed 119.3 and i was not too happy about that because i want to be less! But all of my friends came over and we just got soooooooo high it was ridiculous! And then it happened. They started getting out food. Snacks. And they were like “I’ve got the munchies man”. I tried to not eat, to pass it off as I was not hungry, but they kept asking. So I had some goldfish. And then I had some cheese crackers. Then some nutrigrain bars. Then a buffalo chicken sandwich from Whattaburger…

I ate so much. I woke up and cried because I felt all those calories in me. I still feel all this fat and sugar and gross shit inside me, clogging my arteries, filling my stomach, stretching my pants and shirts. I just want to scream! I fucking got on the scale and weighed in at 121.2… I gained so much weight from one night. One fucking stupid night that I made a wrong decision. That first bite and I was done.

So what am I going to do about it? I am going on a journey, a 7 day fast. 168 hours. 10080 minutes. 604800 seconds. Here we go!

This is so true.

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:31:54 -0500

This is so true.

ineedtobe98lbs: please

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:14:19 -0500

ineedtobe98lbs:

please

Me: I do not want you. I do not need you.

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:14:03 -0500

Me: I do not want you. I do not need you.
Fridge: Oh, but you want to at least take a peek inside me, right?
Me: OK. Just a peek.
Me:
Me:
Me: Eats everything.

I surround myself with pictures of girls like this, hoping that...

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:05:24 -0500

I surround myself with pictures of girls like this, hoping that one day I can be just like them: gorgeous. I want to be that thin and beautiful. But today, I feel like it is impossible.

This is how I feel right now.

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 19:39:43 -0500

This is how I feel right now.

"I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by..."

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 13:29:00 -0500

“I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. ‘Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles unto death.”

- Leonardo da Vinci

subsistingsoul: Vogue Russia October 2012

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 13:01:53 -0500

subsistingsoul:

Vogue Russia October 2012

"The difficulties and struggles of today are but the price we must pay for the accomplishments and..."

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 14:18:53 -0500

“The difficulties and struggles of today are but the price we must pay for the accomplishments and victories of tomorrow.”